She Wonders

Stumbling through this life always searching

Searching for ways to connect

To be seen

Always smiling and laughing

Telling jokes and singing silly songs

Eager to please others

Do you see how obedient I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

Navigating around the confusion

Confusion about what family is

To belong

Always there to wipe away the tears

Caring for others

Everyone else’s needs come before hers

Do you see how loving I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

Conquering life’s many obstacles

Obstacles even within her mind

To be worthy

Always the first to prove herself

Working hard to go above and beyond

Accomplishing so many goals 

Do you see how smart I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

Building the thick skin needed to survive

Survive this cruel and harsh world

To be independent

Always standing on her own two feet

Picking herself up

Each and every time she falls

Do you see how strong I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

Accepting that she’ll never be enough

Enough for them, for the world

To be loved

Always overthinking things

Struggling to trust

Not often letting others in

Do you see how lonely I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

Sick of the neglect

Sick of the abuse

Sick of the silence

She turns and screams

Into the dark suffocating void

Hearing her words echo back….

I don’t need you! I am enough!

Only to grasp it for a moment 

Watching it slip through her fingers

Before the cycle of questioning begins again